Hi all,
I guess I am using this as a way to journal my experience but gain insights from everyone and share mine.
SW: 85 Kgs Height:156 Age :25 - I am also a vegetarian
Day 4 CW: 82.5 kgs
Goal: I don't exactly know what achievable so i'm still not 100% sure - but need to start somewhere
Emotional goal: To feel confident and stop feeling ashamed in the mirror
Short goal - Under 80
Big Goal - between 65-70
So, a bit about me and how I got here.
I was a pretty slim kid (although my there is a lot of obesity in my family) and spent most of my teenage years in an Aus size 8-10. But my mother always used to pick out flaws and created some real body issues for me.
That has kind of always stayed with me - and she still continues to act this way (you can imagine how it is now i am 15-20 kgs heavier)
Fast forward to when I was 19 and left home, having to fend for myself and navigate todays temptations as well as some bad relationships led me to where I am now... I go from diet to diet trying to lose weight ( you name it, i have probably tried it) so i can be just be confident and feel good but just found it impossible to stick to anything.
I am also 1 year out from my wedding day. This is where i found my breaking point where on a vacation with my fiancee for the first time ever i said out loud to someone that I was fat and truly showed someone exactly how low my self esteem really is (Obviously i had said it to myself but never to anyone else - Has any one else had that) my weight was impacting my sex life and relationships and I was struggling with depression and anxiety as a result and quite frankly i was sick of it.
TIME FOR A LIFE CHANGE
so my plan for my time on duromine (Doc has me on a month by month system - for no more than 3) is to use the benefits to cut the bad habits and replace them with a healthy and sustainable lifestyle (which for me is a plant based diet that is full of fresh fruits and veg that makes me feel great and energised and i am no longer always thinking and stressing about food) and be kinder to myself along the way.
I am on Month 1 and day 4 (I'll mention here technically speaking its 1 am on day 5) so clearly insomnia is one of my side effects.
So far I am mostly enjoying duromine - lets start with the positives
So my next few days will be focusing on ensuring I am eating well + enough and exercising and just trying to slow down and relieve these tension headaches a bit with some Yoga and meditation.
Will keep you updated on the journey.
pics for ref
2012
Wish me luck
I guess I am using this as a way to journal my experience but gain insights from everyone and share mine.
SW: 85 Kgs Height:156 Age :25 - I am also a vegetarian
Day 4 CW: 82.5 kgs
Goal: I don't exactly know what achievable so i'm still not 100% sure - but need to start somewhere
Emotional goal: To feel confident and stop feeling ashamed in the mirror
Short goal - Under 80
Big Goal - between 65-70
So, a bit about me and how I got here.
I was a pretty slim kid (although my there is a lot of obesity in my family) and spent most of my teenage years in an Aus size 8-10. But my mother always used to pick out flaws and created some real body issues for me.
That has kind of always stayed with me - and she still continues to act this way (you can imagine how it is now i am 15-20 kgs heavier)
Fast forward to when I was 19 and left home, having to fend for myself and navigate todays temptations as well as some bad relationships led me to where I am now... I go from diet to diet trying to lose weight ( you name it, i have probably tried it) so i can be just be confident and feel good but just found it impossible to stick to anything.
I am also 1 year out from my wedding day. This is where i found my breaking point where on a vacation with my fiancee for the first time ever i said out loud to someone that I was fat and truly showed someone exactly how low my self esteem really is (Obviously i had said it to myself but never to anyone else - Has any one else had that) my weight was impacting my sex life and relationships and I was struggling with depression and anxiety as a result and quite frankly i was sick of it.
TIME FOR A LIFE CHANGE
so my plan for my time on duromine (Doc has me on a month by month system - for no more than 3) is to use the benefits to cut the bad habits and replace them with a healthy and sustainable lifestyle (which for me is a plant based diet that is full of fresh fruits and veg that makes me feel great and energised and i am no longer always thinking and stressing about food) and be kinder to myself along the way.
I am on Month 1 and day 4 (I'll mention here technically speaking its 1 am on day 5) so clearly insomnia is one of my side effects.
So far I am mostly enjoying duromine - lets start with the positives
- I am enjoying for the first time ever getting up early. I'm wide awake with heaps of energy somewhere between 5 and 5:30 and on day 1 and 2 i did workouts (HIIT & some strength)
- Day 4, there was morning tea in my office - which always challenges me with chips and choc and all sorts of fatty, salty and sugary foods and I can't remember the last time i felt so in control - I didn't want any of it - i took 2 strawberries and walked away
- I have also lost 2.5 kgs and can already feel my face slimming and just ever so slightly looser jeans
- Sleeping (most nights i just wake up a few times and then get up at 5:30am) but tonight I am just wide awake I think maybe this is because day 3 and 4 didn't have any exercise
- Day 3 I travelled to Melbourne for the day with work and it sucked - I felt nauseous all day with an awful headache. But i managed to slog through and rewarded myself with a massage this afternoon
- I don't consider it dry mouth, but do have some mouth problems - it feels like the inside of my mouth is peeling on my cheeks and i have a lump in my throat (not dry) but more like that feeling when you swallow some food just a tiny bit too big and don't chew properly and it stops in your throat for a few seconds, which more than anything is just annoying
- still a mouth issue but one of my bigger challenges is a really tight/sore Jaw. not consciously, but I am clenching down on my back teeth so much and i think the tension is contributing to my headaches (any tips on this one)
- Bug eyes - this one is kind of silly and maybe not attributed but my eyes have been quite sore (right behind the eye) to the point where I feel like i have big bug eyes but again Tension headaches do that to me pre D
So my next few days will be focusing on ensuring I am eating well + enough and exercising and just trying to slow down and relieve these tension headaches a bit with some Yoga and meditation.
Will keep you updated on the journey.
pics for ref
2012
Wish me luck
