I've felt kinda flat today - and I'm aware that it's probably because of all of the stuff that my psych session brought up yesterday. I'm a bit muted - it's a beige day for me.
I ate pretty well and exercised again this morning, I'm averaging about 11,000 steps a day and around 1300 calories so hopefully this will be enough to show on the scales. Last I checked I was 102.2kg, so it would be absolutely delightful if I managed to crack the 100 after this week.
A friendly little saboteur at work offered me a salted caramel doughnut today and I didn't have even one problem with saying no. When she asked what was wrong with me (she does know I'm taking duromine - she doesn't approve
) I told her it's like being 20 minutes away from lunch and someone offering you a carrot. Why? Not interested - I can hang out till lunch. She was insulted to hear me compare a salted caramel doughnut from the French patisserie to a carrot! But that is exactly how I'm relating to food now, if it's not beneficial and I'm not hungry then why even bother?
This is the real advantage of Duromine, that it is taking away the emotional aspect of eating because I'm realising that every time I eat there is an emotional reaction happening; anticipation, joy, regret, guilt, anxiety, elation. I'm more inclined to feel happy, stable, satisfied with the way I'm going just now. I really hope that it's all working for me. Fingers crossed xx
I ate pretty well and exercised again this morning, I'm averaging about 11,000 steps a day and around 1300 calories so hopefully this will be enough to show on the scales. Last I checked I was 102.2kg, so it would be absolutely delightful if I managed to crack the 100 after this week.
A friendly little saboteur at work offered me a salted caramel doughnut today and I didn't have even one problem with saying no. When she asked what was wrong with me (she does know I'm taking duromine - she doesn't approve
) I told her it's like being 20 minutes away from lunch and someone offering you a carrot. Why? Not interested - I can hang out till lunch. She was insulted to hear me compare a salted caramel doughnut from the French patisserie to a carrot! But that is exactly how I'm relating to food now, if it's not beneficial and I'm not hungry then why even bother?This is the real advantage of Duromine, that it is taking away the emotional aspect of eating because I'm realising that every time I eat there is an emotional reaction happening; anticipation, joy, regret, guilt, anxiety, elation. I'm more inclined to feel happy, stable, satisfied with the way I'm going just now. I really hope that it's all working for me. Fingers crossed xx
